love me or hate me.

 

toooons of pictures. pictures of me by the way. i thought that it would be cool for you to know how i look like cause i didn't post that much pictures of me lately. so this picture attac is like my apologize for you guys. i really wanted to do a "new in" post cause i went shopping and made some really good deals but my camera died. so next post will be the new in post. pinky swear.

yesterday i got a mail from ebookers.com with my exact flight dates for new york. aaaah. excited.

i was so happy about that and wanted to write my american mom that everythings safe now but right in that moment i got a mail from her that she booked her flight from tucson to new york for october to see me.

can't wait.

Yes, this fear is got a hold on me.

listen to that great piece of music.

my summer vacation starts in two weeks and really right after getting my results for this year i will jump into the airplane and fly to italy. summer in germany is no safe thing so i'm glad that italy is my safe thing this year.

the picture above reminds me of my last fall which spent in danmark right at the beach. just a lovely place which has a special place in my heart cause we use to travel down there every single year. (we is my family...just sayin')

the last fall was the best fall of my life anyways. i broke up with my ex boyfriend in august before and finally felt free to do anything i wanted to. so somhow i used to feel like...i was always hold back by him.

but now i'm a really free and joyfull person. but not a person that is made for being loved by someone else. 

i'm fine with that.

anyways. its so rainy outside and cold. so i will take a  long bath right now.